Well today makes a PERFECT day to start my first post.
Three years ago today.. I gave birth to my first child. A son. A healthy, teeny tiny boy who wrapped me up so quick I didn't have time to cry. I love him with every ounce of me that I hadn't known I had. I was 19 at the time.. One month away from twenty. But I still felt so young. Sitting here today, I feel old. LOL But I'm only 22. I'm a little bit wiser.. a whole lot more mature and responsible. -- Don't get me wrong, I was pretty mature for my age.. I always have been.. never wanting to do anything wrong, never wanting to get in trouble. Just the one thing I thought I was invincible to; I wasn't.
I can't complain- and I don't. That little boy has brought me the happiest memories a girl could ever hope for. He has provided me with joy and laughter. I'm not just "me" when I make decisions. The decisions I face.. I put his needs in front of my own and I always think about him before I do- say- or agree to anything.
It all started on November 30th 2008 at about 11:15 am. I was lying in bed still... (and if you've ever been pregnant.. you may know this feeling) I began to pee on myself... or so I thought!! I thought to myself.. weeelll I had better get my lazy butt up and go relieve myself. That's just what I did.. but once I was done.. the feeling of going wasn't. I shouted out "I CAN'T QUIT PEEING", to wake up the father. He came in laughing.. I said you're laughing now.. but our baby is on its way.. So we called the doctor went to the hospital to get checked out.. and sure enough, my water had broke.
At 12:30 pm I was checked into labor and delivery. Good thing it was a Sunday.. FOOTBALL! (: We watched that all day- all the while getting visitors. I was only 2 cm dilated at the time of admittance. I did not feel a thing until about 3:30 am when I was trying to sleep. I got my first shot of pain medication .... and then the second... and by the time it was time for the 4th shot.. I was ready for the epidural- now as I recall.. the pain wasn't that great either.. soooo I think i was just ready to sleep. However, they do say you forget all the pain once the little one has arrived so I think after 3 years, I have probably forgotten. I got the epidural and I was probably 3 or 4 cm dilated by then. I went to sleep.. they checked me at 7ish i was 7 or 8 cm.. and by 9 - 9:30 I was ready to push!
I only remember pushing maybe 5 times.. It didn't seem like that long and the doctor called me a natural- LOL.
9:43 am was the big moment! HE was here, FINALLY!! I was so shocked I don't even remember kissing my baby- I think my thought process was a little- ewwish. I'm not quite sure. All I know is that 19 1/2" long, 6.8 lb baby was my
LIFE.
Do you feel like you know me yet? Was that a little much?
Anyways the 3 years with him have been amazing, he is in the process of potty training- boy is that fun! (: He's doing really quite well when he does go. I'm proud of him.
It hasn't always been the easiest, every day hasn't been a walk in the park but I've got him every step of the way and that makes life so much more bearable.
I am no longer with his father, that lasted about 4 months after his birth.. that was April of 2009.
In October of 2009 I met the most amazing man for me. We've been together since and are talking heavily on the marriage topic. I am beyond ready to be the family my boy deserves!!!!
OH and 24 days until CHRISTMAS. yayyyy!!
I hope your day is filled with
SPARKLE,
GLITTER &
SHINE THINGS!!
HAPPY 3RD BIRTHDAY TO MY LITTLE BOY <3
